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Holy Spirit, The Giver of Life

In Catholic theology, as I understand things, we commit attribution or appropriation of certain Divine Operations to certain Divine Persons. This is how appropriation happens, Creation to the Father, Redemption to the Son, and Sanctification to the Holy Spirit. However, the truth is all Divine Persons do all Divine Operations. The Triune God is One Being, which does all of the Divine Operations. Therefore, the Father creates, redeems, and sanctifies us, the Son creates, redeems, and sanctifies us, and the Holy Spirit creates, redeems, and sanctifies us. It is therefore a heterodox saying to say that the Divine Persons have different Operations as that would violate circumincession or perichoresis. However, what I shall write shall follow the tradition of appropriation, not to remind us of the hidden side of the Holy Spirit, all is laid bare, but instead to remind us of the precise graces the Triune God gives us in the name of the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is the giver of life, He ...

Consolation and Desolation

I have just recovered from a particular desolation, and the period of consolation begins again. It is a weird thing, whenever I am in desolation I seek the ending of all desolations, yet when I am in consolation I can experience God’s Love once more and then I can understand that all of those desolations were not for naught. Some of you might be unfamiliar with the terms I am using. Desolation is a period where you feel separation or distance from God, real or illusory. True separation from God occurs in the state of mortal sin, so the desolation might very well be correlated with the mortal sin. If one is in a state of grace instead, then the separation is an illusion, yet it the feelings are very real. Consolation is on the other hand a period where you feel union or closeness with God. There are false consolations, where you simply feel happy or joyful without relation to God, and there are true consolations, where indeed the joy you feel makes you truly closer to God. I just conf...

Justification of God

I am currently in pain but I do not care, I will write because it is said that doing something will actually drive the pain away. It is not always what I experience, that the pain I experience actually debilitates me and that it gets worse when I do or try to do something. However, I recognize that it is my personal contract with myself, such that I must do it and write regardless of my pain. So, what will I write for the benefit of my audience, now that I have an audience? However, I write not solely for the audience such that I am a slave of my audience, instead let us reexamine my relationship to you, my reader. I do not write in particular for your demands, rather I write what I want to write, directed to you, but it is instead what I want to write simply, instead of what you want to read. This seems to be a weird relationship of writer and reader, but that is how I establish this relationship. Remember as well that I have chosen you as my reader and all of you have consented to ...

The Meaning to Write

I have written before that I write out of my ignorance and lack of understanding, and that shall forever be the character of my writing. For there is always something I do not know or understand, and I write because I do not know or understand. Then, when I am finished writing, it is the hope that I and some other people have gained deeper knowledge and understanding. So, the reason of why I write is to come from ignorance into knowledge, from foolishness into wisdom, from godlessness into God. The hope is that I would lead others into that change as well. I would like to tell you that I have written texts and long essays since years ago. It seems I have some talent for writing, some natural aptitude or gift for writing things well. However, I have never been able to transform this writing into something which is truly useful for others. Many people have praised my writing as “good”, which I am certainly grateful of and I am thus assured of my competence to write. Yet I have never en...

A Grain of Salt

I write not out of my knowledge and understanding, but out of my ignorance and lack of understanding. This shall be the character of my writing even as I develop and grow into God. My writings are to be treated with a grain of salt as they are nothing but reflections of emptiness within my empty soul. Yet, I still have hope that my writings can be of value and contribute to God’s plan of salvation and to His Church and to all of His creation. That is the sole basis of my desire to write and my plan to write. The first point of ignorance is on the state of the world. The world is in a miserable sinful state, it has done even more to rebel against God and divorce herself from God. I feel that the sin of the world is now unprecedented, but some would say that it has always been like that. However, it is only my unsubstantiated feeling. Who truly knows the heart of humanity but God alone? He alone knows the deepest soul of humanity, what we truly want, what we truly hurt, and what we tru...

Vanity of Thought

I thought that my thoughts are vain to be written. They have no meaning to be written. Well some people’s thoughts are meaningful to be written, but I consider my personal thoughts to be in vain and to be meaningless and to be useless to be written. Yet the idea of vanity cannot be universal to all of my thoughts, for there has to be one idea that is not vain, that is the idea of vanity itself. The idea of vanity is valuable that it is true about all other thoughts of mine, that they are vain to be written. So why am I writing this vanity, simply to be vain? I have been affected by so many people that I cannot trace them back. I am writing this to announce my desire to write, despite the vanity of my thoughts. I am writing to announce that I will write in spite of my recognition of my vanity. Then, any worthy thought must be have its basis somewhere. I think my thoughts to be vain because I see that they are worthless compared to the great Word of God, to Christ, and also to the thou...