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Eksamen 31 Desember 2022

Kemuliaan kepada Bapa, dan Putera, dan Roh Kudus, seperti pada permulaan, sekarang, selalu, dan sepanjang segala abad, amin. Hari ini aku bangun jam 5 pagi untuk bersama papa mengantar kakak kerja. Lalu kami sarapan bersama di pasar, makan mie yang sangat enak. Lalu aku berdialog tentang keberadaan Allah dengan seorang sahabat agnostik, tapi aku menyadari itu sia-sia karena berdasarkan kesombongan egois semata. Jadi aku berhenti, dan mengumpulkan beberapa tulisanku serta menulis tentang tahun ini. Aku juga menulis suatu teks persiapan, dan berdoa Rosario. Akhirnya aku kembali bersama papa menjemput kakak yang pulang kerja dan makan di San Marco yang sangat enak. Aku lalu pulang dan berjuang melawan godaan-godaan jahat. Kemuliaan kepada Bapa, dan Putera, dan Roh Kudus, seperti pada permulaan, sekarang, selalu, dan sepanjang segala abad, amin.

Examen 31 December 2022

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end, amen. Today I woke up at 5 AM to join my dad taking my sister to work and then we ate breakfast together at the market, it was very good noodles. Then I had a debate or discussion or conversation about the existence of God with an agnostic friend until I realized that it is of no fruit. For I had not done it out of charity but only out of egoistic pride. Then I wrote about this year, and also compiled the works I have made throughout this year, and I also wrote a preparatory text. Finally I went with my dad again to pick up my sister from work and ate at the great restaurant called san marco. I then went home and continued to fight against the evil temptations. I also managed to pray the Rosary today. Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end, amen.

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Refleksi 2022

Kemuliaan kepada Bapa, dan Putera, dan Roh Kudus, seperti pada permulaan, sekarang, selalu, dan sepanjang segala abad, amin. Aku hendak merefleksikan apa yang telah terjadi tahun ini. Aku tidak mengingat semuanya, jadi aku mengandalkan Allah untuk menerangkan ingatanku sehingga aku dapat mengingat apa yang telah aku lalui dalam tahun Tuhan kita, 2022. Hal pertama yang aku ingat adalah suatu pengalaman rohani yang membuatku berpikir aku akan hidup sebaik itu sepanjang hidupku. Namun itu adalah suatu delusi, aku salah untuk berpikir bahwa setiap kali aku merasa baik artinya adalah perubahan besar dalam hidupku. Namun bukan itulah yang mengubah kehidupan… Aku juga sedikit menulis tentang pengalaman rohani itu, dan aku menyebutnya sebagai “pencerahan”, betapa naifnya aku. Aku juga ingat menulis suatu karya 40 halaman tentang perjalanan rohaniku, tapi itu pun hasil kenaifan. Ingatan besar pertama tahun ini adalah Sakramen Rekonsiliasi, yang sepertinya adalah titik balik besar di dalam keh...

2022 Reflection

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end, amen. I shall reflect over the things that has happened this year. I do not remember the things all that well, so I shall rely on God to enlighten my memory so I can remember what I have went through in the year of our Lord, 2022. The first thing I remembered in this year is that I had a spiritual experience which made me thought that I shall live good for the rest of my life. Yet it was a delusion, I was mistaken by thinking that each time I felt good means a great change of my life. Yet that is not what changes lives… I wrote a bit about that spiritual experience, and I call it an “enlightenment”, how naïve I was. Then what I remember was also writing up a 40 page document on my spiritual journey, yet even that was a result of my naiveness. The first major memory of this year was my Sacrament of Reconciliation, which seems to be a major turning p...

Eksamen 30 Desember 2022

Kemuliaan kepada Bapa, dan Putera, dan Roh Kudus, seperti pada permulaan, sekarang, selalu, dan sepanjang segala abad, amin. Eksamen 30 Desember 2022. Hari ini aku bangun telat karena sulit tidur malam yang lalu. Aku sarapan buah seperti biasa. Lalu aku pergi ke mall untuk potong rambut dan menonton film seperti rekomendasi papaku. Aku harus mengalahkan egoku untuk tidak melakukan hal itu, tapi akhirnya egoku kalah. Film yang aku tonton adalah Avatar: The Way of Water. Cukup baik, plotnya kurang menarik, tapi visualnya cukup baik. Aku pulang di akhir hari, makan malam dan segera pergi ke eksamen. Sekarang pun aku merasakan kekeringan lagi dan desolasi. Namun apakah perasaanku bermakna? Tidak, sampai akhir hidup pertamaku. Itu saja hari ini. Kemuliaan kepada Bapa, dan Putera, dan Roh Kudus, seperti pada permulaan, sekarang, selalu, dan sepanjang segala abad, amin.

Examen 30 December 2022

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end, amen. Examen of 30 December 2022. Today I woke up late due to difficulties of sleeping last night. I had the regular breakfast of fruits. I went to the mall to cut my hair and watch a movie as my dad suggested. In that process I had to conquer my ego of wanting to just stay home or not watch the movie. However, I succeeded in conquering my ego and did the fullness of the act. The movie I watched was Avatar: The Way of Water. It was a decent movie, the plot not so interesting, but the visuals kept me awake. I arrived home at the end of the day, ate dinner and immediately went for my examen. Even now I felt that drought again and desolation. But what do my feelings matter? They don’t matter, not until the end of my first life. That is all today. Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ev...

Eksamen 29 Desember 2022

Kemuliaan kepada Bapa, dan Putera, dan Roh Kudus, seperti pada permulaan, sekarang, selalu, dan sepanjang segala abad, amin. Eksamen 29 Desember 2022. Hari ini aku bangun pukul 9, makan nasi campur, dan tidur kembali sampai sekitar pukul 12. Aku bangun lagi dan mulai menulis. Aku menulis sekitar 5000 kata tapi itu gabungan bahasa Inggris dan Indonesia. Aku merasakan desolasi dan kekeringan rohani. Maka aku berupaya mengalahkan segalanya dengan kehendak bebasku. Aku menulis tentang Projek Wahyu, Manifes Kehidupan, dan Teks Persiapan. Aku juga membeli minum hari ini, dan berjalan di dalam rumah. Aku juga menangis sedikit karena desolasi dan kesepianku. Aku percaya aku sudah melakukan cukup kebaikan dalam menulis meski dilanda desolasi dan kesepian. Namun, kehidupanku masih jauh dari ideal hari ini. Sebab aku masih memboros uang, tidak cukup berdoa, dan tidak berjalan di luar meski tidak hujan. Aku juga tidak bangun segera pada pukul 4. Besok aku harus lebih disiplin, menghemat uang, be...

Examen 29 December 2022

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end, amen. Examen of 29 December 2022. Today I woke up at 9 AM, ate nasi campur/mixed rice, and slept again until 12 PM. I woke up and began writing. In total I wrote around 5000 words but it was a combination of the English and the Indonesian. I felt spiritual desolation and drought. So I tried defeat everything with my free will. I wrote about the Project of Revelation, the Life Manifest, and the Preparatory Texts. I also bought a drink today, and I walked inside the house. I also cried a bit due to my desolation and loneliness. I believe I have done sufficient good in writing despite my desolations and loneliness. However, my life is still far from ideal today. As I still wasted my money on things I don’t need. I still did not pray enough, and I did not walk outside as I am meant to do as it was not raining when it is time to walk. I also did not imm...

Perkenalan kepada Teks Persiapan dan Teks-Teks Lain

Kemuliaan kepada Bapa, dan Putera, dan Roh Kudus, seperti pada permulaan, sekarang, selalu, dan sepanjang segala abad, amin. Ini adalah perkenalan kepada Teks Persiapan dan juga beberapa seri tulisan yang akan aku mulai tulis pada hari pertama tahun depan. Teks Persiapan hanyalah tulisan-tulisan yang menyimpan gagasan-gagasan yang masih diolah sebelum disiapkan secara cukup untuk teks-teks akhir seperti Projek Wahyu. Secara teknis, hanya Projek Wahyu yang membutuhkan teks persiapan karena gagasan-gagasan dan penyampaian gagasan-gagasan membutuhkan persiapan yang cukup sebelum siap dipublikasikan dalam Projek Wahyu. Projek Wahyu adalah karya akhir maka tidak boleh ada revisi lainnya. Maka, segala karya yang merupakan tanggapan terhadap karya filosofis atau teologis yang lainnya adalah suatu teks persiapan. Karena karya akhirnya bukan komentar itu sendiri, tapi gagasan apa yang aku peroleh dari suatu komentar. Sekarang, aku akan menjelaskan beberapa teks lain yang akan dimulai tahun depa...

Introduction to Preparatory Texts and Other Texts

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end, amen. This is an introduction to preparatory texts and also some other series of writings I shall begin to write beginning on the first day of next year. The preparatory texts are simply writings to contain ideas which are still being processed before being sufficiently prepared for the final texts, primarily the Project of Revelation. Technically, only the Project of Revelation needs preparatory texts as the ideas and the articulation of the ideas need much preparation before it is ready to be published in the Project of Revelation. The Project of Revelation is a final work, so it cannot have any further revisions. Therefore, any work that is in response to other philosophical or theological work is necessarily a preparatory text. As the final work is not the commentary itself, but what ideas I obtain from that commentary. Now, I shall explain som...

Life Manifest 2022

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end, amen. This is what was asked of me to be written by someone, which I cannot disclose to protect the identity of them. This writing came out of a particularly painful session. I was sleeping and was forcibly woken up to receive a talk about something I really don’t want to deal with when I have made the decision to sleep. So I felt a great deal of pain due to my ego being disrupted, but I forced myself to sleep even with such painful, and I can still remember that pain. This writing is a life manifest, about my dreams, my plans, my desires, and the various things which befell upon my life. I do not know what a manifest is meant to contain, so I just write based on what I think. My life is a cycle of happiness and suffering, just all people’s lives are. In fact, as I am a proper Christian, it is only necessary that I suffer, as Christ promised me suf...

Project of Revelation 2

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end, amen. The first revelation to be explored first is natural revelation, as these are the revelations which are theoretically accessible to everyone universally without the aid of supernatural grace. However, this Project shall interchangeably discuss the 2 revelations of natural and supernatural, but naturally, the natural revelation comes prior to supernatural revelation. In this writing, I shall focus on a distinction which exists within natural revelation, that is between philosophy and science. Natural revelation can aptly be divided into philosophy and science. Both studies a common object, the truths accessible to mankind by virtue of their natural capacities. However, the particular truth studied by philosophy and science are different. Philosophy primarily studies God and things pertaining to Him as the fundamental reality of all things. Sci...

Project of Revelation 1

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end, amen. This is the beginning of the Project of Revelation, a possibly lifetime long project by me initially, and perhaps in the future by many people other than me. The Project of Revelation is an essentially Catholic project to unite natural revelation, that is the truths of the world and God as possibly known through our natural intellect, and supernatural revelation, that is the truths only known through direct communication by God, into a single system of revelation in the Catholic Faith. What is the purpose of uniting natural revelation and supernatural revelation? To further mankind’s spiritual progress or in other words, to lead mankind back to God and ever closer to God, to sanctify mankind by any means through any means. For natural revelation is given to us for our sanctification as well, to bring us back to God for our union with God that...

Guide on Writing 1

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end, amen. My Lord, I intend to write a good piece of writing, perhaps as best as any brief text can be. Yet I possess no understanding or precise knowledge on how this piece of writing can fulfill the criteria of goodness. I pray to You before I write anything, so I only rely on Your graces to help me write in a good manner. Yet somehow all these times my writings have always received positive feedback from others. That means it seems You are the one who mostly work through my hands instead of my own work. However, I would be gladdened if I can receive from You that ideal form of writing, or guidance on writing, that I can use on my own and I can establish a method of writing good writings. So for the very least, if the content fails to measure up to goodness, then the writing is good by its form and method. For I am a writer and I seek to excel not on...

Writing on 15 53 27 December 2022

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end, amen. Lord, my God, I wish to unite all philosophy and logic under Your Name, Your Essence, Your Existence. Of course there is already a single argument sufficiently proving Your Existence based on the facts that be. However, I must bring every argument into a single stream of argumentation which becomes a solid block of Systematic Revelation. Now, I will slowly buld this up and I will establish a new series, that I call the Project of Revelation. So it will no longer be simply fun and games, but it is a project which I construct for the ages. To You, my God, and to you, my human audiences. I have a question, must I truly delve in Church teaching and comment on it as much as possible? What if I were to read it and understand it for myself first and then begin commentary on it? I think that is the best way to go through it is it not? I am not so sur...

Philosophical Fun 4

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end, amen. My God, I wish to include the argument of Your Creation in this series of writings as well. So I pray that You accept this small offering of mine. The argument of God’s attributes 1.      God is infinite 2.      Therefore, God lacks nothing 3.      God possess infinite power, knowledge, and goodness. 4.      However, God is simple 5.      Therefore, God is omnipotence, omniscience, and omnibenevolence. In prose form, we know that God is infinite from our previous argument. We also know that God is simple existence. As such, if God possess anything at all, those things would actually be identical to the Necessary, Simple, and Infinite Existence which is God’s Essence. Therefore, God must be infinite power, knowledge, and goodness, sin...