Morning Reflection 18 December 2022
Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end, amen. It is a beautiful Sunday, even if it is still dark outside as I am writing this. Every day and moment is beautiful for it is given by the Lord. Only when you are in hell it ceases to become beautiful. Otherwise, on earth, in purgatory, and in heaven, it is all beautiful. Therefore, we must be unceasingly grateful to God. However, it does not eliminate our suffering, it only mitigates our suffering. Pain still exist and corrupts that God given beauty of our time.
My pain is precisely
in wondering what good can I give to my brethren in humanity. It is the pain of
wondering whether my writings and thoughts still have any value left to my readers.
Why do I write, for you, or for myself? If I write for myself with the
secondary purpose of you, that will explain the nature of my writings,
according to my interests. Yet if that is true, then why do I write for you in
the first place? It is all done according to my ego. If I write truly for you,
then I must write what you need to read. Yet even, not everyone needs to read,
much less needs to read what I have to offer.
So I have things to
offer, yet I do not know to whom I should offer it. Then God gave me an answer
to this sad prayer, that I should think of this time as a time of learning and
practice, and so while you are my real audience, you are also not my final audience.
In short, my being and works have not achieved their full actualization before
God and before man. Had my being and works reached full actuality, then it
would be as I have always dreamed, a true community of fellow thinkers,
readers, writers, and speakers. My writings would touch your heart and inspire
you to take up my cause.
Therefore, to my loyal
audiences, I wish to write something. I thank you for simply being yourself and
contributing to the Kingdom of God as God calls you. I have once called you to
be active audiences of my being and my work, but I no longer ask of you
anything but simply be yourself as God has created and called you. I will
continue to write as that is the only thing I have to offer for God and for
man. If my works succeeded in touching you, then I am happy. If you remain
disinterested, I remain joyful. For I know that God loves me, regardless of my
usefulness as a man or not. Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy
Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without
end, amen.
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