Kanon Jiwa 13

 I am the manifestation of God, the meeting point between Man and God. Though I am more "God" than I am Man. I am here to subdue you and destroy you, by the collective Will of God and your own puny will. I am here to radically take control of things and make things better for you.

This sounds like a contract with the devil.

But this is what you want right?

Any so called manifestations can be infiltrated by the devil. Display your "light" as much as you want. I would rather die in suffering with God than live in happiness with the demonic. Even then, the demonic in my mind is merely a creation of the mind, a dark force of the mind which wishes to condemn me into hellfire with it. I know that you are offering me a happy and easy life without the Cross. But I know my fate, that I am to suffer greatly by God, and then I am to die a failure, burn long in purgatory, and inhabit the lowest place in heaven. 

Why do you not want to live an easy and happy life? Do you not know that darkness and evil will continue to try and destroy you, wherever you go? Why do you distrust me so much?

For I trust only in the Lord my God, the One God, Christ, the Father, the Holy Spirit, and in nothing else.

Yet we have established that to do that you must trust in yourself primarily. Checkmate Iggy, now die.

I will not die to you.

Recognize your desires and why I am here. BE HONEST! 

FINE! Yes I want you to be here. But I am scared. I am scared of dying. I am scared of surrendering the self to this so called divine manifestation. I mean like, what are you? I don't want you to mess up my life. I don't want you to destroy me. But I do want someone to take care of my life. Because I can't take care of my own life. 

Then you must die now. Close your eyes, and surrender to your own desires. 

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