Self Concept, Self Awareness, and Self Esteem

  This post records my self concept, self awareness, and self esteem. The self concept speaks of my strengths and weaknesses, abilities and limitations, aspirations and worldviews. The self awareness speaks about my general view on how aware I am on who I am. The self esteem speaks of my personal assessment of my self esteem.

Self Concept

My most fundamental strength or positive trait is charity or love. I am known as a helper by many people and I know myself to be a loving person observed from how I help a lot of people deeply and how I care for others unconditionally. It is not perfect charity as God has it, but it is adequate on a fundamental level. Next is my intellect, I have a strong intellect which manifests in my capacity to understand things and to explain them well. I often rely on my intellect but I consider myself balanced with my feelings and intuition. I am sensitive and aware on my state of soul or mind or heart and can describe them and express them in a rational manner. I am also accepting of the various conditions of life and am willing to accept failure or fault, this is probably an extension to charity.

My weakness is my pride, where I have in the back of my mind thoughts of self superiority, but I do control this pride from time to time. I am too spread out, I have problems trying to focus my energy on one place. I have some lack of faith in God, or at least a flawed faith which leads to all the problems. It means that my strength, charity, is also my weakness. I don't have a strong enough charity to actually make my life perfect. The lack of charity leads to some laziness on my part and inordinate desires which is the source of all other problems in my life. My other weakness is my incapacity to recognize the truly fundamental flaws of my person.

My aspirations are simple, to fulfill the will of God in my life perfectly in a perfect manner without fail. Part of that will is to convert the entire world into Catholicism, or at least evangelize to the entire world as best as I can. My worldview is simple, it is the Catholic worldview. The summary of the Faith can be found in the Nicene Creed or the Apostles' Creed. Essentially I believe that all things must be submitted and centered to God, particularly Christ. For Christ is the absolute mediator between Man and God. He is the God-Man. The lack of God is the source of all man's problems, and the solution to all man's problems is God.

Self Awareness

I consider myself to have a particularly high self awareness. However I cannot substantiate this claim other than through my self concept. I am aware that each person, not just me, have a massive unknown self. For the self is deeper than the oceans and richer than Bill Gates. Only God knows the fullness of any person, nobody knows themself as well as God does. 

Self Esteem

In terms of self esteem I may have too much self esteem, or simply high self esteem. Cognitively I consider myself to be my ideal self, I think I am the ideal self, not in the sense that I am perfect but I have the necessary tools and personality to have the ideal development of the self. Thus affectively I feel pretty good about myself, I like myself, a lot. This might be the source of pride. In terms of behavior, I judge myself to be confident enough to assert myself in conversations which I value. In other conversations, I simply stay quiet as I think there is not enough value in them for me to speak. That is all.

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