Kanon Jiwa 8

 I am a cradle Catholic but I have only converted spiritually into the faith this year. By that I mean that previously I was a cultural Catholic only, there was a time where I diligently celebrated the Eucharist, but there was not a great understanding within me about the Faith. In terms of experiences with God, I have a lot of them, so I will not write about any particular experience but I will write about my general experience of God. Also, it occured to me that perhaps my Faith had began long before this year, but perhaps as a small seed in my soul. 

There are many times where I experienced the great love of God in my soul, that would be the times of consolation. There are also many times where I experienced the divine hiddenness, yet even in times like that, such as now, I still recognize God's presence in me and all around me. Even when I am in a state of mortal sin, such as now, that presence and love never stops, He calls me to repent and to reconcile fully with Him in the sacrament of reconciliation. 

Most times I experience God is through a grace of the intellect, where I would obtain thoughts of guidance from Him, and many times those thoughts are translated into an inner voice and persona. Other than intellectual graces, I had a unique experience where I was certain that it is God, yet it is possible that I am mistaken. At that time, I tried to sleep but instead I contemplated God and then it was as if the veil between me and Him was opened slightly and my soul perceived a sliver of the Eternal Glory of the Lord. It was rather overwhelming but filled me with such joy and happiness that is indescribable. 

I wish I can write more, but this is as much as I can write right now.

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